Before you say anything, I know that it has been a while since I last blogged. It is nothing personal, it has just been a very interesting few weeks for me and though I felt the Lord tugging at my heart to write about it, I just couldn't bring myself to...until now.
It is funny how the Lord works. I can only speak for myself in saying that it usually is never how I think it should happen nor is our timing always one. He has planned out all of my days before there were even any. He goes before me to make a way when there is none all while preparing me for what He has in store. So when I was laid off from my job last week, though it was a complete surprise to me, it was not a surprise to Him. A financial decision was made that left my position obsolete. Now, because this major decision was not based on me or anything that I had done, it was a lot harder for me to swallow than if it had of been a consequence to my actions. In looking back over the lessons that I have learned and the sweet nuggets given to me by the Lord over these last few months, I can see how He was preparing me for where He was taking me.
The amazing thing in this change of seasons is the peace that I have! A peace in knowing that the my God fights for me and allows me to be a part of the big picture that He is orchestrating. A peace in knowing that God will provide all of my needs and that my steps are ordered and directed by Him alone. Something that only the King of Kings can provide. Last night He spoke to my heart reminding me that my daily peace does not give me an "out" from daily working on my relationship with Him. Let me try to explain further. I trust the Lord is who He says He is and that He will do what He says He will do. I mean, He hasn't let me down yet! So in my trusting in His ways, faithfulness, provision and knowing that He has something better in store for me, I have a peace. That peace He gives me is simply because He is good and He loves me, nothing more or less. How easy it is though to just feed off of that feeling and forget the rest? The need to continuously fight and seek? Enough for the Lord to check my heart about it so that it doesn't happen! He compared it to a marriage relationship for me to better understand His point. I can have a husband who is a great provider who I trust knowing that he will do what is right towards me because that is just the kind of man that he is. I can rest and have peace in those facts, but if the other very important aspects of our relationship are not being daily worked on, it will eventually stop working! So with our relationship with the Lord..
The sad reality is that situations in life are not always fair. But bigger than that, God is sovereign and in control of every aspect of our lives...every detail. He promises that if we seek Him with our whole hearts, we will find Him. Not with part of our hearts, not just on Sundays, not only when people are watching and not just through a feeling, but with our whole hearts. Wholly & completely! Though we are caught off guard when unexpected change comes, He is not and He will use those things to grow, teach and move us into the new places that He has prepared for us. Places that we might not have gone to on our own, changes that we wouldn't have made without His initiating.
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