There are those days that you feel as if it couldn't get any better. You are on top of the world, on fire for Jesus and nothing can stand in your way! Your excited and your joy bubbles over faster than you can contain it. Then come those days that you are doing all the same things, all that you know to do yet you feel so, for lack of a better word, dry. I mean like the Sahara, the hottest, driest desert in the world. This is exactly how I have been feeling the past few days.
Before I got into my Word this morning, I asked the Lord to forgive me for being so dry. In my mind, I should be doing more, I should be learning more, experiencing more and any other godly verb that you can think of! I should be floating on cloud 9 just because! I should be bouncing around Allied Gardens with a big smile on my face proclaiming the good news for all to hear! Should, should, should. More, more, more. Right? As I expressed my disappointment with myself, God in turn reminded me that those burdens that I am putting on myself are not from Him. In fact, He reminded me of two very important things that just seemed to have slipped my mind in all of my perceived dryness. The first is that I can't base my standing or my relationship with the Lord on simply how I feel. Feeling will come and go, they have the ability to change every day and I am a woman...enough said. Secondly, my sufficiency can and will only come from Him, not myself. No matter what extra burdens I place on myself, no matter what additional tasks I find to do. I think though sometimes we forget..not on purpose, but in our humanness we just forget.
There are no shortcuts to the cross. It is the Lord that wills the work to be done and it is then Him who completes the work in us. Bottom line. It is a willing process of growing, learning, submitting, trusting, waiting, seeking, loving...and though it ain't always easy, it is always worth it!
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